March 2007


A friend of mine who was visiting Buenos Aires commented how my tango dancing had changed and how I was playing with certain kinds of elements more than others. The comment made me realize that some things I do is out of necessity due to the lack of space and the complete unpredictability of the dance floor of the milongas and practicas I attend. It made me look at other people’s dancing in a different light. Particularly, the collective way of dancing of the younger generation in Buenos Aires. It’s interesting to think that maybe a major factor that people dance the way they do is out of necessity. Elsewhere in the world the environment may be different (in terms of music selection, space, and ambiance). These teachers then have a huge impact & influence on the general poplulation who take classes from them or aspire to dance like them.

From a dancer’s perspective, it’s interesting because of the added constraints to how you can interpret the music. For example, if you interpret the music to be flowy but the floor doesn’t flow then you need to find another way to make your dance flow, etc. Or from a viewer’s perspective of watching a performance of true social dancers and wondering why someone chooses to interpret certain pieces of music a certain way. Maybe they are just accustomed to dancing with a certain constraint that it’s in their blood. With the constraint taken away, it still affects how they interpret the music (or simply, some just aren’t aware that the constraint is not there anymore?).

It seems that the root of all of my stress is related to time. As I look back upon my life at all of the moments when I was completely stressed out, feeling the weight of the whole world on me, every one of these moments had to do with limited time. It’s odd to find myself being unemployed and be more stressed out than ever (due to lack of time for my various projects). I keep trying to remind myself that life is what you make it but somehow I continually find myself making it pretty stressful. I hope that my new awareness of the underlying reason will help me manage things better in the future. If only I had a better relationship with Father Time…

Having played in a few ensembles I am beginning to understand how important chemistry really is. The way you feel about the people in your group as a person, as a colleague, and as a musician. First and foremost there must be mutual respect. Without it nothing will get done. If you’re lucky and the people in the group genuinely love and care for eachother, then you have a strong foundation to create something really beautiful. The rest is left to talent, hard work, and dedication. I am sure it’s the same in any art where you are constantly working closely with a group of people trying to create something magical. Ultimately, chemistry or lack of chemistry will come through in the performances.